Waiting for Gabriel
The day outside in the real world is sunny, warm and cheerful
People are going about their daily business
seemingly content with their lot
Me? I take no part in that
Not because I don't want to
but because I don't have the energy
to hold that fake smile on my face
The smile that will be expected of me
if I were to join them outside in the real world
The weather may be warm, the people may be cheerful
but I am here faced with my own reality and nightmare
Alone in a room, cold and frozen to the bone
with fear and its iron fist being all that keeps me from falling apart
I'm even too afraid to cry out of fear
of being labeled insane or a drama queen
Crying won't help anyway, as our fate has been sealed regardless
There is nothing left to do but wait
for Gabriel to come for you and pray that you leave peacefully
Try as I may, his will is stronger than mine
As I sit here trapped and waiting
thoughts of death and darkness fill my head
I think of Heaven and I think of Hell
I know you will go to Heaven
I think of ways to persuade Gabriel to take me too
because I don't have the strength to face this world without you
You represent all that I was, all that I am and all I ever will be
Without you I am nothing
It's always been you and I against the world
so if you go, I too will find a way to join you
I see Gabriel in my mind and pray for him to let you stay
Or to also take me away
