Rolling Stone
I was lead to a man
a celestial writer
Very appealing to my frail senses
And as fearless as I was fearful
of living and raising my voice
I became a sponge picking up after him
and crawling back as opposites do
what they do best
I broke down my walls
as he had anticipated
Leaving me with little to offer myself
back in my attempt towards recovery
of insatiable love-loss
Excepting his entitlement
He could change his tone
and bring me to tears
Said he was breathing
love for him into my heart
He learnt my weakness
A gift of Mercy overflowing
I became as forgiving as his beloved mother
The disorder he suffered
I suffered in him
for him and so I was hurt and healed respectively
Repeatedly and secretly
It seems
now at the end of the secrecy
at the height of those qualities
that he described as my downfall included
my supposed lack of ambition:
the hypothetical fruit of my uncertainty
and my inadequacy
I had to discard my instincts and keep falling
Following the heart i wore on my sleeve by day
And laid on his pillow every night
in the hopes that he was inspired by a Higher Power
Would catch me at my wake
I fed myself the impression
that I was being loved with an honest tyranny
Nonetheless we kept dancing
to the music of the All-Seeing
When he let go of my head
and half of me came crashing
down in his lap as the Godly half of me
kept walking out and relentless walking back
I'm not as athletic as my restless
young limbs inspire me to move
nomadically but I had the Strength nonetheless
He still lingers on my tongue
waiting to reside again and again in my flesh
He paid me compliments
which further enhanced our incompatibility
Stripping me
pressing down on me
Closing me in and playing along
with the voices in my head
He became the worst of all
and then he disappeared
back to where his heart belonged
Back to where he was accustomed to sacrifice
in the face of hardship
His mother's arms
Surely where there is hardship
there is even more Hope
Lessons and consequences
I'm increasingly becoming accustomed
to belief of the power of Love within myself
to emphasize that I too am a piece of the Puzzle
