I swear
I could shove words down your throat till you choke
Don't mean you'd understand the words that I spoke
The same words that line these pages
The pain lying behind these verses
Me versus the world
Waiting for my future to unfurl
In front of me
But it won't happen that easily
I gotta shape my own destiny
I was told it was a long road
Hope I'm ready for this journey
Nothing could've prepared me for what lies ahead
A head-on collision with my fate
No matter the outcome
No need to commiserate
Sure, I've considered the rest
but I'm ready for nothing less than success
In this contest I refuse to regress
Going ahead with this test
And failure isn't an option
Stressed about this opportunity
To show you the hard work done by me
For my salvation
I ain't talking about the army
This ain't a hand me down operation
Life is rough but I stayed on course
Even with the abrasions caused by coarse words
On the occasion like I'll never make it
And it was a good joke I thought I could fake it
So this is where I'll be stationed
Trying to be all I can be
I still ain't talking about the army
But it sure feels like I'm at war
The way I'm fighting
for these dreams I wanna live for
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I don't care how long it takes
or how many rules I break
I gotta make it, gotta get to the top
The number one spot
When I'm there who's to say I'll stop?
Give me a chance
I swear I’ma get there
Now I've got these doubts
that I could do without
What if this don't workout
Where does that leave me?
Have I deceived myself?
Believed I could achieve it just 'cause I dreamed it
False hope keeping it close
I'm talking in circles, always verbose
There's no conclusion to what I'm saying
I can only offer confusion with this game I'm playing
And you will continue losing
Disorientated by the lies I've instated
Backtracking my story
that I keep recreating
It's debilitating
I'm getting exhausted
Even though my horizon broadened
It looked contorted
And it's the last call
All aboard for this record
I'll drink to that
Drinking to my downfall
That's thinking ahead
'Cause you wouldn't catch me dead
with words I didn't mean
'Cause these words got me through
they help me stay true
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My mind isn't on that paper
My pen is
Trying to pen these emotions into words
Into feelings that can be heard
That once were hiding in the darkness of my mind
Now they crawling out of crevices, one at a time
And they turn on a dime, sporadic is an understatement
All this potential kept latent, crucial that it's stated
'Cause then there's no going back
But that won't change the fact
That there's so much holding me back
Like people saying that it's too late for dreams
that are pass their expiration date
Seems I need to remind you my aspirations aren't up for debate
No room for mistakes, there won't be a retake
This is my last chance, my last resort
My only opportunity, I can't afford to waste it
This might be the last time I chase it
Hasty for this to be the right time
Things are changing, these tables that are turning
This person that is yearning for something bigger
Something better than a life that's mediocre
Before it's all over and I'm left with these burdens
of regret on my shoulders
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