I could cry all day
Miss you in every way
But it won't change a thing
Can't undo what you did
No love lives here!
I could spend a moment in your arms to claim some residual feelings
Won't make your grip any firmer or the embrace any more meaningful
So this is me, saying goodbye
And I could say everything that my heart wants to hear
Keep you longer, fighting stronger
But it won't loosen the burden in my mind
Just won't change a thing
Will never undo what you said
And my hopes don't live here anymore
Maybe there was an us at some point
Maybe we had a shot
But if the gun was killing me all this time
Then what were we fighting for?
A losing war?!
I could spend my time loving you, if that's what you want me to do
But is it what I need to do?
What benefit will it be to me, having you in and out of my life, like a boomerang set free!
Maybe I'll find a reason to sustain what I thought was love
Maybe I'll find a way to let go of what I know is not enough
This right here, is not enough
I need to be happy
Just like I was in the earlier stages of this
When I actually remembered the stuff you said because I had paid attention
When having you around was a priority
Right now, it's strictly optional
So why am I still here?
Probably too scared to venture into the unknown
Probably confusing stability with comfortablilty
I'm sorry it's taking me too long to let go
Not used to losing someone who is alive
Why are you still here?
Not physically but emotionally
Not verbally but mentally
I'm so ready to break this field of uncertainty
Studying myself as I try to find a new life, without you!
Without all of this business
No plans, a productivity level of zero and feeling consumptions at a massive rate: no profits!
It's so easy to plan this, difficult to implement
I'm struggling to forget the memories, which are now barely relevant
Love rarely prevalent!
I'm so ready to break this field of uncertainty
Studying myself as I pursue a new route, without you!
Without all the maybes and what if's!
All the broken promises
All the hopes and dreams that have challenged the reality of all of this:
We are not meant to be together
That's a forever!
Forever apart! Forever different! Forever infatuated! Forever not-in-love
So why am I still here?
Emotionally, verbally, mentally!
Physically weakened by your strenuous mood swings, your timeless lies, your uncertainty!!
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